April 7, 2016, Something
For a long time I sat and wrote, trying very hard to produce a poem. I was struggling to get into the poetry frame of mind. What happened was that I wrote eight pages of self-actualization of explaining things to myself. It was all very enlightening but much too personal.
In the midst of this angst I realized something. When I began my art career, I made a decision to not make my art about my own broken emotions. I told myself that I would not use my art as a way to express myself. I had a vision of a greater goal than my emotional state. In the process of pulling my emotions out of my art, I wondered if others were not able to connect to my work. Was it too impersonal? So I began to infuse myself into my work in hopes of making a connection with my appreciators.
This is what happened today. I saw myself writing from this personal point of view. I was trying to show my humanity. But I realized my connection is not that I make myself vulnerable and show my hardships with you. I am bringing you art that is meant to inspire and encourage. It is my hope that it enlightens you. It was never about me but what I could give to you. So I regrouped and wrote this visual poem for you.